<33shayna

..

Thu, 17 Mar 2005 00:08:36 GMT

..deaded.

hey baby ;]

Wed, 09 Mar 2005 18:05:32 GMT

long time no write.
WUDDUP NUKKAS?!

Wed, 26 Jan 2005 18:00:16 GMT

i love you so much you kill me. and i hate you.

i love you.

Mon, 17 Jan 2005 23:30:20 GMT

i love you anthony. never let me down. please.

"somewhere someone's finding happiness..while i'm still here so hung up on you.. "

Mon, 10 Jan 2005 02:22:18 GMT

so long story. but it's so hard.. RULES: X the box if it's relevant to you. write a little comment in italics if desired.
have you ever..</b>
[x] been drunk.
[x] smoked pot
[x] kissed a member of the same sex. (no make outs)
[x] rode in a taxi.
[x] been dumped.
[x] shoplifted.
[_] been fired.
[x] been in love.(i might be right now..)
[_] been in a fist fight.
[_] snuck out of your parent's house.
[_] been arrested.
[_] celebrated new years in times square.
[_] went on a blind date.
[x] lied to a friend.
[_] had a crush on a teacher.
[_] celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans.
[_] been to europe.
[x] skipped school.
[x] hooked up with a stranger.
[x] thrown up from drinking
[_] lost your sibling.
[_] played 'clue'.
[x] had a sleepover party.
[x] went ice skating.
[_] dropped x
[_] been cheated on.
[_] had a sweet sixteen
[_] had a quinceanera.
[_] had a car.
[_] drove.

do you...
[x] have a bf. (i'm gonna say yes because its not over.. it can't be.. i'm not letting go yet)
[_] have a gf.
[x] feel lonely.
[x] feel happy.
[x] hate yourself
[_] think youre attractive.
[_] have a dog.
[x] have your own room.
[_] listen to r&b/ hip hop
[_] listen to rap.
[x] listen to rock.
[_] listen to soul.
[_] listen to techno.
[x] listen to reggae.
[x] paint your nails.
[x] have more than 1 best friend.
[_] masterbate.
[x] get good grades
[x] play an instrument.(horribly... lol)
[x] have slippers.
[x] wear boxers.
[x] wear black eyeliner
[x] like the color blue.
[_] like the color yellow.
[_] cyber.
[_] claim.
[_] like to read.
[_] like to write.
[_] have long hair.
[x] have short hair. (i consider it pretty short? im used to really long hair thooo)
[x] have a cell phone.
[_] have a laptop.
[_] have a pager.

are you...
[_] ugly.
[_] pretty.
[x] ok.
[_] bored.
[_] bilingual.
[x] white.
[_] black.
[_] filipino
[_] mexican
[_] asian.
[_] bolivian
[_] short.
[_] other.
[x] tall
[_] grounded.
[_] sick
[x] lazy.
[_] single.
[x] taken. (im still his..)
[_] looking.
[x] not looking.
[x] talking to someone.
[x] IMing someone.
[x] scared to die (it would hurt more people than me)
[x] sleepy.
[_] annoyed.
[_] on the phone.
[x] in your room.
[x] drinking something.
[_] eating something.
[_] in your pjs.
[x] ticklish.
[x] listening to music.
[_] homophobic.

i never said i'd take this lying down...i've crawled home from worse than this...

Fri, 07 Jan 2005 21:13:42 GMT

</3.

HAPPY BDAY ANDREW

Wed, 05 Jan 2005 03:34:37 GMT

AHHH ANDREW SHOULD HAVE HAD BALLOONS!! DAMN YOU ALL!! happy b-day andrew. :].

a little late but... happy new year :]

Mon, 03 Jan 2005 23:26:58 GMT

so i duno if i'm gonna be using this as much. i like xanga better. but eh i've got this, my xanga (GO THERE NOW AND PROP ME BIATCHHH [ www.xanga.com/srm3o90 ])
nd my myspace. and i get bored with some of them sometimes. but w/e. deanna did my layout for my xanger n e ways.

mike got me a stewie t-shirt and spongebob socks.. awwwwww mike you really didn't have to. and archit gave me her flowery belt thing. i'll make some kind of outfit out of it. so i got mike a "don't mess with texas" belt buckle :P and vicky some underwear to go with the movie i got her (shh she doesn't know i got it for her) and megan some underwear to go w/ the hawthorne heights cd i got her lol. nd nicki headphones....wow i really thought i wasn't gonna get n e thing for n e one but i ended up getting everything for everyone.. well almost.

belated gifts are owed to...alicia..caitlin...
nd n e one else who gives me something (but its late so i doubt n e one lol)

so yeah that's pretty much it.

colt 4555 and 2 zigs zagsss baby that's all we neeeeeeeeeed

Thu, 30 Dec 2004 06:18:51 GMT

so yeah.
i don't think i'll be having a sweet 16 n e more ...

:/

Wed, 29 Dec 2004 07:12:59 GMT

so i still feel that way down there a little. we talked.. he understands.. he really does. he just needs to act on it. once he does that we've got some progress. until then... *sigh*.

2day is our (well its 2:08 in the morning so technically yesterday) was/is our 1 month anniversary. he really does make me happy. but he pisses me off too.. (as you can tell from the other entry lol). but things are definately not looking down. he's gonna be here all the time .. i don't have to be. if we need time apart i've got plently of places to go lol. we don't own eachother, he's just a big part of my life and i love him and don't want n e thing to go wrong.

lol this entry is starting to make no sense.. ewwwww napoleon dynamite was funny... but i could never sit through that again!! i'm sorry nensy.. how do you love it.. how?...

haha <33

Tue, 28 Dec 2004 00:42:36 GMT

so being the 5th kid when used to being the 2nd is kinda hard.. not 2 mention danny sleeping over now and then. the girls don't bother me. but guys are annoying. no matter who they should be sticking up for, they stick with eachother instead. which bothers me more, considering i shouldn't get that negative attention. especially from him of all people. and i just wish it could be one of those "lets just chill with this for awhile" thing because that's not an option. i don't try to make this hard. this could be fun. it is to him, and he has lots of fun. fun being with my brother/fun playing with video games all day and not going anywhere with me/fun fucking around with my head. he doesn't see it though. he comes to me when he feels like it. he says i "come to him when i want something. which is so fucked up considering that's exactly what he does to me. why? do i deserve it? i want to love him.. then why does he push me away like he does? and why does brian instigate? and why are me and deanna the only ones seeing this? why should i even put up with this shit?

merry christmas...

Sat, 25 Dec 2004 05:58:24 GMT

well i hope everyone had a good christmas eve and will have a good christmas day considering im jewish and don't celebrate it to begin with. 2night we went to nick's and that was eh... i don't care about me much it's just another night i just wish it was a better christmas for anthony and deanna. (for a nice pic of them g2 www.xanga.com/srm3o90 lol).
and becca's coming soon!! yayy!! she's my friend from georgia.
haha nd thursday i spent the whole day at bayside... so funny.

la la la

Sat, 18 Dec 2004 23:47:23 GMT

so anthony's here.. and danny and brian. deanna went to bay terrace with juan. i've been chillin in with anthony and deanna all weekend so far and i wanted to go to bay terrace but anthony didn't wanna and i didn't feel like going without him or making him go if he really didn't want to so w/e.

next weekend its christmas eve at nick's i think.. i duno if we're still gonna go? but i think jersey next weekend for sure... i duno i don't really care..

and im pissed at myself because i'm not making time for my friends. and i'm really sorry to liz who i haven't been giving enough time lately because you're always there for me and i'm not for you.. we can hang out during the vacation for sure so please don't be mad at me you know i love you

ok pizza here. HOLLA.

for all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me..

Tue, 14 Dec 2004 04:03:30 GMT

so mike likes to write these adorable poems.. and i love this one so much its so sweet

I was there for Shayna, and Shayna was there for me.
And I realized all I need is her to make me happy.
Not a hot girlfriend or a couple of lesser friends,
But all I need is Shayna, and I'll have her till the end.
But wen I'm really down and when I'm feeling like shit,
Not only do I need shayna, but also the wonderful Archit.
When she's not on medication she brings out the best in everyone.
Telling them their great, but she's really the great one.
And Sivan you're the only one who really knows who knows how I feel.
Because you've been there and felt that and you know the pain is for real.
Erica, you deserve more than one line.
Because when we talk you make me feel fine.
You made me feel better that very same night.
I hope we always stay this close and this tight.
Who can forget about Maria, who is so happy to see me?
With a big hug and a kiss like were practically family.
Making people happy is what she does best.
And having a friend like her, truly I am blessed.
And Sharon is always there with a smile and way with words.
The things she says are among the greatest things I've ever heard.
She's always happy to see me, she's always so sweet.
Whenever I talk to her she's just so upbeat.
And Jessica even though we haven't really been friends for a while,
You just always find a way to make me put on a smile.
And when I really need some chocolate chip cookie dough
Only one person to call, the great Figuccio.
These are the people who really care.
And if I left you out just tell me I'll fit you in somewhere.
Because if I cared enough to show you writing piece,
Then you must be pretty important to me.
These are the people who fill my life with glee,
And you're now on the list, you're so lucky.

they're so simple yet he always just writes them to express himself and i love it.. i <3 you mike!!

...did my chemical romance just start speaking spanish?! *rewinds song* woah..it's spanish! ..

so 2day liz and her fam came over for dinner.. i love so fucking much<33 and she gave me edward scissorhands!!! i'm gonna watch it next time i get the chance. it just takes a little dose of liz to make any stress go away :P.

<33i just may be falling for you...

think of all the places where you've been lost and found out

Sun, 12 Dec 2004 05:00:08 GMT

>>"why can you read me like no one else?
I hide behind these words..
but I'm coming out.
I wish I kept them behind my tongue..
I hide behind these words..
but I'm coming out.

Put your hand between,
An aching head and an aching world,
We'll make them so jealous,
We'll make them hate us.
An aching head and an aching world,
We'll make them so jealous,
We'll make them so jealous..

Always you make my stomach turn..
And all the long drives,
With my friends blur.
And I wish I kept them inside my mind..
I hide behind these words...

And think of all the places
Where you've been lost
And then found...out.
In between my sheets..
In between the rights and the wrongs.

Put your hand between
An aching head and an aching world,
We'll make them so jealous,
We'll make them hate us.
Aching head and an aching world,
Think of all the places,
Where you've been lost and found...out."<<

aw what a nice song. now to an entry? lol
so last night was soo much fun at nensy's house decorating her christmas ttree!! haha i couldn't do the lights cuz i'm incompentent but vicky and nensy did a pretty good job. so yeah we got pizza after school, went back to nensys, came here for a little while so i could get my IPOD and DIGITAL CAMERA !!! ahhhhhhhh so happy :D.
lmao!! nensy running out of her apartment with a care bear hat to see all those cute 17 yr old guys.. haha good times good times...and yeah NEW YORK MINUTE is the most horrible movie EVER!! hahaha.

and 2day i came back early, had my tutor and chilled her for awhile. i mean i love seeing friends but its just that time where you wouldn't wanna do anything rather than sit in your own house by ur self just chillin.
lol...so then i couldn't find anything to wear to go with anthony so i wore the skirt i borrowed from nensy and it was very sexy. eh i looked okay..haha. of course my amazing anthony told me i looked beautiful :P. and i wore heels .. and hes still a pretty good amount taller than me even when i have heels, but i still hate being tall and he makes fun of me lol. I CAN'T CONTROL IT!! EWWW!! so tommorow queens center with anthony? and dinner @ anthonys?

comment me :D

i'm good 2 go for something golden

Wed, 08 Dec 2004 00:35:47 GMT

!!!happy hannukah!!!

so i got my first gifts from anthony... since i constantly whine about not being able to have a christmas tree, he got me a mini one which i proudly call my hannukah bush. :D.

and he got me a little Oogie Boogie..from my favorite movie in the WHOLE FUCKING WORLD the nightmare before christmas. :].

so i'm getting a 20 gig Ipod and a shexie digicam camera, to arrive here on friday? noice.

I WENT UP .20 ON MY REPORT CARD!! AREN'T YOU SO FUCKING PRIZOUD?! lol ew i got a 70 in spanish...

so donations of christmas ornaments are welcome because i must decorate my hannuakah bushh. caitlin b said she's getting me little candy canes (that wud be sooo awesome) and jessicas gonna look for cheap ornaments to give me..and i'll hit up meg and nensy..haha well actually MEG AND NENSY I KNOW YOU'RE GONNA READ THIS CAN YOU GUYS FIND A CHEAP ORNAMENT OR TWO TO LEND??? ilu!

<3anthony<3

i guess that all you got, is all you're gonna get

Sun, 05 Dec 2004 18:23:18 GMT

so not much to say. it's sunday...friday was the krock concert. it was terrible...jimmy eat world was okay tho. then technically saturday (like 130 am) i went to nicki's and missed their actually partying but i had enough fun..lol.

last night there was nothing better to do so nensy and jessica came over...we chilled laughed had muchos fun lol. then we went to bay terrace with brian steve danny and danny because there was nothing better to do? lol. we randomly saw rob, mike, and a few other ppl from school

why does anthony have to be in trouble!? i'm dying because i don't want any other plans but to see him :[. IT'S OKAY THOUGH! i heart him :].

and i have a $600 hannukah spending limit..HOLLER! revised list

1. 20 BG ipod
2. Digital Camera
3. maybe a skateboard? or that could be a b-day present...
4. if not a skateboard, some clothes

i'm good to go, but i'm going no where fast

Mon, 29 Nov 2004 23:07:07 GMT

heylo.

so me and anthony again :].
hoping for the best, just hoping nothing happens.
anthony + shayna est. 10/13/04 or 11/28/04
^we're still deciding which one counts lol

I GOT THAT DAMN THING IN THE TOP OF MY MOUTH OFF. i'm happy. now i can get that tongue ring i always wanted :P. oh god i wish i could get a tongue ring.
:[ maybe one day....lol

ok so yeah braces off PRETTY DAMN SOON. i'm excited...they said next appointment in 6 weeks is if they're telling me if i can get them off or not which would be 6 more weeks, so im looking foward to them off before my birthday. yeahyuhhhhhhhh.

Thu, 25 Nov 2004 18:41:20 GMT

so last night muchos ppls came over..
nensy, jessica, eddie, danny, danny, anthony, caitlin, chelsea, liz, steve, and my brother of course
wow am i missing n e one? i duno but my house isnt that big for that haha

so anthony gave me a wedgie and ripped a thong RIGHT OUT OF MY ASS omg !
...he so owes me underwear...

and i had mood swings because of my parents...and liz showing them alicia's thong pic! :-X omg if they saw more they'd kill me...
well there wasn't really n e thing else but w/e...

and now i'm confused about my feelings. i'm so bad at this.
<3?

werd to yo motha

Tue, 23 Nov 2004 22:03:30 GMT

hellogoodbye last night was soo much fun! the first band was okay, then the next like 3 sucked, socratic was good then HELLOGOODBYE :]. it was so much fun lmao----- rob dancing with random rip-away pants ppl, "taco bell lover plays with himself!", "why do I have to sleep in the trunk?!" lololol and so much more..

so senses fizail soon..and the krok thing, and HANNUKAH IN LIKE 2 WEEKS!! AHH I CAN'T WAIT. comment me and tell me what you want...seriously because i'd like to know :].

and friday i'm going with nensy to the show @ glen something or other lanes...yeah i really duno but it's gonna be fun cuz we're gonna see michelle and bowl haha. i think jessica's coming too? :/.

it really sucks that i don't really have plans for this vaca either..just on friday...SO SOMEBODY MAKE PLANS WITH ME :P

you promised me starry night skies, they just remind me of your shinning bright eyes

Sun, 21 Nov 2004 22:21:39 GMT

wow what a weird weekend lol.
i can officially say that was the most eventful yet uneventful weekend ever.

so friday- robs house/chilled with meg and rob and alicia slightly but i dunno she was acting reallyyy weird/park/family guy/lap dances/failed slidding attempts/poker chip hahaha

saturday-mall w/ nicki. we were supposed to meet her camp friends. one showed up for a little. harassed sexy gelb i've never met and made him drive to the mall with his friends from merrick but they got there after we left! arghh . well we were there for like 15 hours anyway...lol
then bay terrace/supposed to see spongebob but really didnt wanna see it/chilled with danny/saw amanita and emil/chris came/car rides with weird ppl?/freezing cold in the park/NO alchohol/smoking on the patch DON'T DIE NICKI NEVER DO IT AGAIN!!/vicki fighting waking us up 5 in the morning

lol that was such a weird day though i duno why....

k so today im chilling. i put my away on to study like an hr ago..and here i sit...not studying....

hellogoobye tommorow!!

when kelly cries, the make-up runs from her eyes and spills the truth about how she feels inside

Thu, 18 Nov 2004 22:31:45 GMT

soOo since last night i guess its fair enough to say:
i've cried myself a river
built and bridge
and gotten over it. =P. i'm such a loser...

so yeah i was in a really strange mood today and wanted a walk. and considering the bus passed me i was too pissed to take another and walked from like bell and 48th ave, to my house @ 203rd and 28th. i actually enjoyed it. lol...
and i saw michael c @ bayside. came home and downstairs mike was chilling with his bi-curious friend? lol katherine? yeah...so she asked me how if anthony was a good kisser because he talks about all these hook-ups? lol so it's sad to say in that case i dated a slut =X. haha.

school was good..5th period fun w/ rob and mike...8th period is always fun with mike, mike i <3 you! 2morrow rob invited me over...lol it's so weird not getting the invite from alicia but of course i'll go haha.

well it's love...make it hurt...

Thu, 18 Nov 2004 00:49:51 GMT

i hate the number 13
i hate relationships
i hate my big mouth

...singing songs that make you slit your wrist...it isn't that much fun...

Mon, 15 Nov 2004 22:49:58 GMT

SiLeNtxTrAgEdYy: LETS GO SEE CREED!
CoolJewish LoseR: HAHAHA
CoolJewish LoseR: no.
CoolJewish LoseR: OMFG
SiLeNtxTrAgEdYy: lmao
CoolJewish LoseR: WE SHOULD SEE ASHLEE SIMPSON
CoolJewish LoseR: !!!!
SiLeNtxTrAgEdYy: no
SiLeNtxTrAgEdYy: lol
CoolJewish LoseR: why the fuck nawt
CoolJewish LoseR: omg
CoolJewish LoseR: you and me should dress gothic and like slit our wrists
CoolJewish LoseR: and see ashlee simpson
CoolJewish LoseR: and mosh
SiLeNtxTrAgEdYy: LMAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
CoolJewish LoseR: how G would that be..
SiLeNtxTrAgEdYy: very

lmaoo...i love rob

so yesterday was jesse's bar mitzvah. it was soo much fun. thank you nensy for the dress i got compliments :-D. i got to see jenni who i haven't seen forever...and OMFG zach's hair blow dryed out!! lmaoooo soo funny. AND HE MADE ME LOSE TWISTER ARGHHHHH.

mazel tov jesse i love you!

and oh-my-fecking-gawd.. me liz and rob are seeing fecking senses fail and midtown...OMFG i love senses faill....sooo excited!! and one more week till hellogoodbye with meg and rob :-D and rob said maybe (if his friend lets him) he'll take me to my chemical romance. w00t w00t.

what else...i got a 96 on an english test. i'm happy. :]. nd some random girl told me i look like i can be a model...wow def not.

if we go down, we go down together nensy ;-)

Sun, 14 Nov 2004 01:20:08 GMT

soOooo what's neww

yes, i'm not talking to my brother. don't ask but let's say i hate him with a passion. yesterday i chilled with nensy after school and she let me borrow her beautiful prom dress for jesse's bar mitzvah 2morrow..I'M SO EXCITED!! i can't wait 2 go and see JESSEEEE and zach and jenni who i haven't seen in months.

Last night after nensy left liz was supposed to sleep here (long story) i slept over there. we visited nicki and jason who i just met (yay hes so funny NORTH BABYALONIAN MWUAHA) last night. and today we woke up and went for a walk and went to visit nicki again. so me and liz walked from 223rd and northern to bay terrace lol with nicki and jason..IT'S SO FUCKING COLD OUTSIDE. we went to applebees then i came home alone around 5ish and i'm just chilling..painting my nails and watching the illest fucking movie edward scissorhands

so nowww for a random hannukah list lol :
hannukah countdown- 24 (?) days HOLY SHIT THAT'S CLOSE

1-Ipod
2-Digital camera (i should have gotten it for graduation..)
3-Edward Scissorhands DVD
4-CDs (specific ones later...)
5-North face fleece thing
6-All white converse
7-All black converse
8-A FOUTON!!
9-maybe a fone cover..they're too fucking expensive tho

so i'll write more later...its so fucking close arghhhhh